I try not to look back at the past too much.
So when I looked backed as I was wondering what direction my life should take after I achieved it all.
I thought, yay, I am fit and mentally healthy.
Sound, everything is going to be great now. I can take anything in my stride.
Wow, look at me, I used to say in the mirror.
You are so normal and healthy plus you look good girl!
I was so busy bigging myself up I didn't see what was headed my way.
FULL FRONTAL MELTDOWN
Oh yes, it happened to me.
Never saw it coming.
Was a total surprise.
Full Frontal Meltdown is something other people do, or say happened to them to get sympathy because they are weak and pathetic and like being victims.
Generally these women are divorced, single parents or just have some disaster written all over their faces.
I don't hang out with people like that, they can't handle themselves.
When they get together to drink wine they turn it into group therapy.
My ex did this, I'm tired of doing it all by myself, he's not paying child support.
Blurg, that is not my idea of hanging out ladies, I am outta here.
I am not responding to your voicemail!
We will not hang out again.
And then it happened to me.
If you get enough knocks in a short space of time, oh hell. It can happen.
(Although, I am not divorced, doing it by myself nor do I have any children)
I don't even understand how I became this unempathetic person.
I used to have empathy for days, I used to be agony aunt person.
Lean on me and all that...
Maybe I stopped being that person cos everyone was taking advantage of my patience.
Ok definitely, that's the reason why.
Now, people I trusted and respected I really can't stand.
Before, I was wondering if I am strong enough to start my own business.
Now my aim is to not be resentful, when I was Heavenly Alarming the other day.
I Alarmingly hate some people now- blurg!
Funny how life changes, and the different people you become when you grow through things.
